why do we make life so difficult?!

" sweet insanity
that runs trough my mind
and covers my thoughts with pure anger...
dispair...
...wild nigths
endless days
too much feelings for one only person
i'm scared..
but fear will only make me stronger
irony?!
that's my midlle name
strange feelings, strange thoughts?
just a part of my day!!
yeap! this is me..."

tell me something...
do you trust people?
how do you know if you can trust someone?
think about this and tell me something!!

ciao*´


i'll see you around...

is there something better than a figth with your parents?!!

hello! i don't have much time here, so i'll have to write fast!
how many of yoy live with your parents?
i still live with mine, but not for much long, i hope!
i had a big figth with my mother this weekend. she almost put me out... the next mornig i was talh«king to a friend and i told her what hapenned.. she told that she is living alone because their parents moved to another town. so, heres the deal. she told me i can go live with her. i don't pay rent. only water, gas and eletricity! this is cool! and what about my mother?! she toldme i
could go but only when i have my own money. I hope it will be soon!
i'm tired of having my parents always controlling me. i believe this happens to all of you, sometimes!!
the big figth i had with my mother turned into a good thing. when i talked with her next morning, she understood i needed my own space, my own freedom, my responsabilities!
maybe next week i'll be living somewhere else!!
if something goes wrong i'll just say:" it's my party and i'll die if i want to..."

have a nice day...

i'm so nice! please don't hurt me... (fuck off!!!)

"i don't know who you are, but you seem very nice
so you talk to me.
shall i tell you a story
shall i tell you a dream
they think i'm crazy
they don't know that i like it here, it's nice and clean, i do everything for free....

have you been here before, shall i show around
it's very pretty
have you come here to stay, well you sure pick the day
my name is mary...."
listen k's choice! i'll talk to you later!!!
bye...

am i a good person?!

hello again! what's uuuuuuuuuuuuup? well, this day is going well! i finally got a job. i was getting tired of depending on my parents for everything!!! finally i/ll have my own money and, somehow, my independence! i've thinking about somethings i've heard lately! Someone said i'm a negativist person. i am, in deed! but, someone (not the same!) else said i was a good person! i'm not so sure about this! i believe i'm a good person when i really trust people and i feel confortable with them. i used to be the kind of person who would give everything for a friend. and i suffered a lot for this! believe me!! but this was a long time ago! now i see how much i've changed in this years! i used to think that everybody was nice and friendly... i've cryied too much (i still cry, but that's another story!!). but thet question is: "am i a good person?!". maybe. i love when people trust me and talk with me about their own problems. when i meet someone who has allready suffered is quote, i try to talk with that person, make him feel he can trust me and i'm not going to hurt him! yes, i can be a good friend, yes, i can keep a secret, yes you can trust me god damn it!!! what a fuck is the problem??! "am i a negativist person?". maybe... has i said to someone, i give some value to pain so i can apreciatte my good times! like everything in life there must be an equilibrium!! (i'm not sure if i wrote this word correctly!) damn it! well, enjoy this one! "i move between cold shadows i taste your fear in my mouth my eyes wont shut down unless i try to see more than i want to My mind is drowning into strange feelings i hold my breath but i can not hold my anger i try to sing but all i can do is shout i try to write but all ican do is unleash my inner beast i'm alone in my room however, i have lots of presences around me touching me, alowding me to feel them and i fall asleep peacefully slowly i take a step into your dreams wich become nigthmares the ones i wish to live intenselly don't let me wake up now..." that's all weird people! have a nice day. at least one in your lifetime! ciao

is this me?!!!

another useless day in my useless life!
it's enough god damn it!! don't you think i've had my quote?!!
i feel empty, sick of this dead town, alone! i can't even write a fucking poem!!!
i wanna get out of here, get a life, meet some people.
i don't wanna become like my mother. she hasn't got a real life and it's always depending on other people!!
that's not me!
please tell me, who the fuck is living my life?!!!
well, i've talking to a girl who used to be one of my best friends. we lost contact of each other for a while but now were back to throw down this
place!!!
well, i hope you like this..."poem" i wrote.
Honestly?! i hate it!!!


´"why should i
see with my eyes
if i can feel with my soul
why should i
touch the world with my hands
i'll use my mind instead
should i be myself after all
all this questions and doubts
are consuming me
destroying me
day after day
but i keep trying to find
the answers to the big question
wich is my life
maybe, when i find all the answers
i'll be dead already!!!"

i don't give a shit if you liked this poem or not!! (i'm sure you didn't!!)

See you soon... or maybe not!!

hello again!

hi everybody! what's uuuuuuuuup?
this is the first page i will share with you!
something about myself and my strange world!
i'll share with you some of my darkest toughts, poems, confidences...
anyway... i hope you all enjoy this trip!!!

lots of despair for each one of you!!!