am i a good person?!

hello again! what's uuuuuuuuuuuuup? well, this day is going well! i finally got a job. i was getting tired of depending on my parents for everything!!! finally i/ll have my own money and, somehow, my independence! i've thinking about somethings i've heard lately! Someone said i'm a negativist person. i am, in deed! but, someone (not the same!) else said i was a good person! i'm not so sure about this! i believe i'm a good person when i really trust people and i feel confortable with them. i used to be the kind of person who would give everything for a friend. and i suffered a lot for this! believe me!! but this was a long time ago! now i see how much i've changed in this years! i used to think that everybody was nice and friendly... i've cryied too much (i still cry, but that's another story!!). but thet question is: "am i a good person?!". maybe. i love when people trust me and talk with me about their own problems. when i meet someone who has allready suffered is quote, i try to talk with that person, make him feel he can trust me and i'm not going to hurt him! yes, i can be a good friend, yes, i can keep a secret, yes you can trust me god damn it!!! what a fuck is the problem??! "am i a negativist person?". maybe... has i said to someone, i give some value to pain so i can apreciatte my good times! like everything in life there must be an equilibrium!! (i'm not sure if i wrote this word correctly!) damn it! well, enjoy this one! "i move between cold shadows i taste your fear in my mouth my eyes wont shut down unless i try to see more than i want to My mind is drowning into strange feelings i hold my breath but i can not hold my anger i try to sing but all i can do is shout i try to write but all ican do is unleash my inner beast i'm alone in my room however, i have lots of presences around me touching me, alowding me to feel them and i fall asleep peacefully slowly i take a step into your dreams wich become nigthmares the ones i wish to live intenselly don't let me wake up now..." that's all weird people! have a nice day. at least one in your lifetime! ciao