why???!!!

well, i feel good today. i feel like i was caught in the midle of somekind of spiral of strange feelings.... but i feel so insecure.
i had an occasional fuck with a certain someone. a few days ago that person came to me and started a strange conversation. he told me he felt something special about me and he would like to spend some more time with me. i told him he shouldn't fall in love with me because it wasn't good for him. i would only make him suffer!!! i told him i was in love with someone else.... (this is not a lie!!)
now the question is: why do we keep falling in love with the "wrong" person, again and again and again?? and then we have the other part. someone (we don't love) falls in love with us... what shall we do??
i know. just be honest and tell the true. i've done it and it worked out (i guess!)!
well, i guess i have nothing more to say...
have you noticed? it's fucking hot outside!!!
bye to you all...