missing...

have you ever felt like there was something extremely important missing in your life? i'm sure it happened...
it's happening to me right now and i don't know why! i mean, i'm doing exactly what i want to do. riding horses and giving horse riding lessons. i'm about to go work with my cousin in a new pet shop, wich is about to open. i've been doing some beautyfull candles with a friend of mine and we sold some of them to a store in tomar.
i don't understand what a fuck is wrong with me...
alright, i do know what's missing!! i miss HIM... who? you tought i was going to tell you, but i'm not!
we have a strange friendship and somehow i guess it will last for a long time. but i want more than a friendship. sometimes i would like to know how to read people's mind so i could find out what is he thinking about...
and i can say... i'm a bit starving for sex!!
my entire sex life is resumed to a short but intense journey trough my body. but after that i can only taste loneliness, sadness and other feelings that are not so good!!
shit, i can't take this anymore... but what can i do? ''surrender'' to the first motherfucker that comes into my way? no way. i've done that before and i didn't felt much better after that...
i can also wait for my enchanted prince, who will come rescue me in his beautyfull white horse...
ciao***